This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognised by yourself as a mighty one; the being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; the being a force of Nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.

– George Bernard Shaw

Reminded of this… Pastor Lia shared this back in the sermon on Significance. Are you significant? Or merely successful?

This weekend, Pastors will be back in Heart of God Church after visiting Russia! So excited to hear about the missions.


Ambidextrous Faith

Last weekend in Heart of God Church, Pastor Cecilia Chan taught us about FAITH! One of the things she taught us about was to have ambidextrous faith. To be ambidextrous is to be able to use both your right and left hand equally. If you’re my age, you would remember Return of the Condor Heroes when Xiao Long Nu drew a square and circle simultaneously in the sand. The next day, everyone in school was doing it. Haha, anyway, Pastor Lia got us to write the word FAITH with our master hand, and then the other. Can you guess which is my master hand? Obviously…


With my right hand.FAITH - LEFT HANDNow, with my left hand T_T

Why do we need ambidextrous faith? Because The path to walk towards your promises can be filled with a lot of difficulty!

St Basil of Caesarea was one who had ambidextrous faith. He viewed both hands as equally important – one hand to accept God’s blessings, and with the other life’s pain.

We may never find the reason for our suffering
But we can find the purpose for our suffering 
Judges 20:16 (NLT)
16 Among Benjamin’s elite troops, 700 were left-handed, and each of them could sling a rock and hit a target within a hairsbreadth without missing.
These 700 men may have been injured and lost the function of their other hands. However, they were ambidextrous. Don’t let your wound (your past and experiences) cause you to walk away.

Hebrews 12:6

I love stories and analogies… We just ended Season 1 of the Parable series in Heart of God Church by Pastor How! Haha I found detailed (really detailed) sermon notes of the series on Zhen Wei’s blog. Anyway, we were also sharing about discipleship in CG, and I heard this verse from Hebrews 12:6! It reads:

“My son, do not despise the chastening of the Lord,
Nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him;
For whom the Lord loves He chastens,
And scourges every son whom He receives.”

Many people don’t like to be told they’re wrong because it’s painful.

Well, imagine I’m a five year old on the MRT… I’m running around in circles playing catching with my siblings before a voice stops me, clear as day, a finger extended straight to my face.

“杨明荣, 给我坐下来,立刻,现在!”

It’s my mum, and she tells me if I run on the MRT I’ll fall flat on my face and lose my two front teeth. Boo, and that’s the end of the fun.

Contrast this to yourself today, when you’re on the MRT. I said on, not sitting, because sitting is controversial nowadays (har har). You notice some children laughing away, playing police and thief. How many of you would actually grab hold of one of them and say, “boy, don’t run, dangerous…”? Probably not, because:

1) The boy would give you a who-are-you-why-are-you-talking-to-me look.

2) You’d probably be wondering instead, why isn’t this boy’s parents stopping him? It’s dangerous! Some of us might even snigger if the boy fell down (if he had been particular disruptive of peace in the train, or just plainly annoying).

You see, discipleship, or chastening as the bible calls it, is reserved for children. That’s why the verse tells us not to be discouraged when we are rebuked. It’s part and parcel of being someone’s child. Rejoice, knowing that you are a child of God, and you’re not spending December singing all I want for Christmas is my two front teeth!

Child of Tondo

Tondo - Cris
A card from Cris – a child living in the slums of Manila.

Look what came in the mail a few days ago! A card from Cris – a child living in the slums of Manila. I’m glad to know he’s safe even with all the news of tornados hitting the shores of the Philippines. Even as our lives go on in Singapore, it’s hard to forget that they’re still there living their lives in the slums…

If you haven’t read about our trip to Tondo, you need to take a read here!

Christians are judgmental… Why?

It’s like how if someone gets a divorce, and instead of being concerned and caring, we talk about the children being affected by it, or we discuss how it is not biblical! But you see, the Bible is not a litmus test for good or bad morals – the truth is that we all should know that we are sinners.

So why are we so judgmental? Check this out by Pastor Tan Seow How.

This is just a preview, you can watch the entire OOPS Series here:

Others may, you may not.

by G. D. Watson (1845-1924), Faith is the Victory

If God has called you to be really like Christ in all your spirit, He will draw you into a life of crucifixion and humility and put on you such demands of obedience, that He will not allow you to follow other Christians, and in many ways He will seem to let other good people do things which He will not let you do.

Others can brag on themselves, and their work, on their success, on their writings, but the Holy Spirit will not allow you to do any such thing, and if you begin it, He will lead you into some deep mortification that will make you despise yourself and all your good works.

The Lord will let others be honored and put forward, and keep you hid away in obscurity because He wants to produce some choice fragrant fruit for His glory, which can be produced only in the shade.

Others will be allowed to succeed in making money, but it is likely God will keep you poor because he wants you to have something far better than gold and that is a helpless dependence on Him; that He may have the privilege of supplying your needs day by day – out of an unseen treasury.

God will let others be great, but He will keep you small. He will let others do a great work for Him and get credit for it, but He will make you work and toil on without knowing how much you are doing; and then to make your work still more precious, He will let others get the credit for the work you have done, and this will make your reward ten times greater when He comes.

The Holy Spirit will put strict watch over you, with a jealous love, and will rebuke you for little words and feelings, or for wasting your time, which other Christians never seem distressed over.

So make up your mind that God is an infinite Sovereign, and has a right to do what He pleases with His own, and He will not explain to you a thousand things which may puzzle you in His dealing with you. He will wrap you up in a jealous love, and let other people say and do many things that you cannot do or say.

Settle it forever, that you are to deal directly with the Holy Spirit, and that He is to have the privilege of tying your tongue, or chaining your hand, or closing your eyes, in ways that others are not dealt with.

Now, when you are so possessed with the Living God that you are, in your secret heart, pleased and delighted over this particular personal, private, jealous guardianship and management of the Holy Spirit over your life, you will have found the vestibule of heaven.

Rules, but not Conditions.

Reflecting on today, I remembered what Pastor Tan Seow How shared in Heart of God Church a few weeks back during the OOPS Series. It was about the difference between having rules and conditions. Here are some parts from my notes.

First up, Rules. We need them! Children cannot be disobedient and dishonouring of parents. You can’t have your brother running around with a knife at home, right?

Without rules, family become dysfunctional, and society would descend into anarchy.
There are rules, but they are not Conditions. You may break the rules and face the consequences, but your value doesn’t change.
There are Rules in this house of God, but no Conditions.
Whether you keep the rules or break the rules… Rules do not mean God’s love is conditional. God loves us no matter what.
My thoughts
#1: I am loved
So, on some days I make really big blunders. I mess up. When I mess up, there are two ways to go – fight or flight.
Either I take myself on, to search deeper inside of me and find out what’s wrong with my character… Or I would run away, pushing the blame on someone else instead. I hope it’s obvious which is the easy way out, and which is the correct way to go.
However, no matter how big the mistake I’ve made. I’m always given a chance to change it. If I break out of my own fears and insecurities, I realised that the love for me is unconditional. No one’s giving me the weird eye, or looking down on me. I’m still loved and valued the same, mistakes made or not.
God’s love is unconditional.
#2: I must fight the right battle
Ask yourself some questions… Do you think others look down on you? Do you feel that you are judged? If you do, whose voice are you listening to? Is it the voice of truth? Or the voice of your own fears?
When I break a rule, I want to make sure I learn and grow from it. I remember that correction is not rejection. It’s never a personal attack.
You see the enemy is never another person… The enemy is not your family. The enemy is not your friend. The enemy is not your boss. And the enemy is not your leader either.
Ephesians 6:12 (NKJV)
For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.
You see, if you are always going against people or a person in your life, you may just be fighting the wrong battle. 
God, I pray I grow in my character always… To be more and more like You. 


I love GXT. They never fail to crack me up. Can’t wait for this Easter’s GXT production to be on Youtube. (Edit: it’s up!)

In the meantime, some of my favourite characters and scenes of past GXT videos. Hahahaha check out their videos here GXTproductions… And follow them on Instagram! Sorry I got all excited with making more .gif files… 😀

Stella as Keyboard Warrior in “Dare to Dream
We also in a rush!
Colin versus Ming Jian in “The Deal”
Recruit Darshen
Recruit Darshen in “A New Unit”

What a weekend it’s been. So so many lives changed. Will write more in the morrow. Goodnight!

Impromptu Inter-Zone Games


After dinner today, we headed to Kallang Wave Mall where BW, CM, E, and G Zone came together for some impromptu inter-zone games. We played a game called whisper which was absolutelyyyyyyy fun. A pair from each zone was selected: the guesser would have earphones plugged in, not able to hear anything, while the partner would have to mouth out the words to be guessed. The .gif shows KS and Marcus in an epic tag team guessing the word ‘Chelsea’.

Xing and Sooyee were really good at the game. They managed to guess sentences like “put the elephant in the refrigerator”. They were an ama-xing team (harharhar).

Hahaha, it’s moments like these to be treasured.