Ambidextrous Faith

Last weekend in Heart of God Church, Pastor Cecilia Chan taught us about FAITH! One of the things she taught us about was to have ambidextrous faith. To be ambidextrous is to be able to use both your right and left hand equally. If you’re my age, you would remember Return of the Condor Heroes when Xiao Long Nu drew a square and circle simultaneously in the sand. The next day, everyone in school was doing it. Haha, anyway, Pastor Lia got us to write the word FAITH with our master hand, and then the other. Can you guess which is my master hand? Obviously…


With my right hand.FAITH - LEFT HANDNow, with my left hand T_T

Why do we need ambidextrous faith? Because The path to walk towards your promises can be filled with a lot of difficulty!

St Basil of Caesarea was one who had ambidextrous faith. He viewed both hands as equally important – one hand to accept God’s blessings, and with the other life’s pain.

We may never find the reason for our suffering
But we can find the purpose for our suffering 
Judges 20:16 (NLT)
16 Among Benjamin’s elite troops, 700 were left-handed, and each of them could sling a rock and hit a target within a hairsbreadth without missing.
These 700 men may have been injured and lost the function of their other hands. However, they were ambidextrous. Don’t let your wound (your past and experiences) cause you to walk away.

The PSLE Question

It’s the first of October, Children’s Da— the start of the PSLE examinations! In a few hours, my students will be on their way to the examination halls – taking the first major examination of their lives.

Please revise your work and feel free to ask me any questions, okay?

“Cher, who do you think will get the higher score… Is it him or me?”

Sigh. I meant ask me questions about English…

For the first time I understood the heart of the father, and meant it when I said:

“Both of you are my students, don’t have to compare and compete. I’ll be proud to see both of you do well.”

I’m thankful for Heart of God Church and Pastor Tan Seow How and Pastor Cecilia Chan… Where I learnt that we all have a gifting we can serve God with. Even among hundreds and thousands of people, each individual is special and has their own gifting; we don’t need to compete with each other. It’s easy to be insecure and forget that God has made each of us special – fearfully and wonderfully! And in this test of life, you just need to do your best instead of looking left and right.

Maybe He is also telling us: “You are my children, don’t compare, don’t compete. I’ll be proud to see both of you do well.”

All the best for your examinations later, kiddos~

Listening Comprehension

Listening seems simple enough. We listen everyday, don’t we?

But… How many of us listen closely enough? It’s when you listen closely that you hear the little things. These things that matter and could change your life.

We often hear of people complaining about others and how “this person has an anger issue”, or how “this person is so selfish”. Well, if you listen close enough, maybe you’ll understand why that person in question person is the way he or she is… You’ll have a glimpse into the person’s life, and that’ll change your perspective.

When Pastor Tan Seow How and Pastor Cecilia Chan shared with us about the fig tree, there were so many wonderful principles to learn and catch! However, I also thoroughly enjoyed hearing out for the little things.

I remember clearly that Pastor Cecilia Chan shared how she would be found kneeling by her bedside praying very often. That’s what I wanted to do too! I started in the mornings before heading out for work… and in those moments are when I learnt to pray to God about the day ahead, about problems that are bugging me, about having faith to overcome them. It worked because the bed is where I start and end my day; going by the corner to get under the fig tree is really pretty easy and fast. You know how it is… The moment the rush of the day sets in there’s no time for anything else… if you put it off for later, it’ll never happen.

Many people complain about how they don’t hear from God anymore, or how churches are getting too busy. I sincerely beg to differ. In Heart of God Church, I hear so much… All I need to do is to listen carefully.

When you start to listen, listen carefully, and closely – you’ll realise there’s so much more to be heard. God whispers in a still small voice, it’s time to start hearing out for the little things! Try it – this weekend in church, when you’re talking to your friends, even when you’re sitting on the train home… Aiyoh, how can you eavesdrop? Seriously, they talk so loud what!!! Hahaha..

TGIF everyone!

Did you see me under the Fig Tree?

We had a stayover to celebrate the end of the university exams last night! Somehow, ten of us managed to squeeze into my room. We played Bang! and Coloretto… These games and Saboteur are games that are tests of friendship. How much do you really trust me? Am I on your side?

Playing Bang!
Playing Bang!

After everything, the dudes then went on to watch Taken 3… While some of us were taken by the zzz monster. The highlight of the night had to be when it was three-ish close to four. We had just finished another round of Bang! and decided to take a time out to head under the fig tree. Pastor Cecilia Chan had shared with us over the weekend about spending time under the fig tree – spending time with God in His presence. So, we put aside our card games for a moment. We took out a guitar, and started to worship, singing really softly so we wouldn’t disturb the neighbours. It’s hard to explain but it was such a sweet moment.

“I draw near… I draw near… to You… You draw near… You draw near… to me…”

There in His presence there was a peace, and we felt so refreshed (yes, even at 4am).

I remember Pastor Cecilia Chan sharing with us before that it’s not the glamorous moments where we encounter God, but the most heartfelt ones. It’s those when we put aside all our worries, fears, pride…When we have no pre-conceived idea of how we’re going to encounter God. When we come before God and say “I really really need You…” You see, God is the same yesterday, today, and forever! The same presence of God that touched me years ago is the same presence last night. Some days, I just need to un-complicate myself and get my heart right before Him. Can’t wait to hear Part 2 of The Fig Tree tomorrow!

Easter: He was dead, but now He is risen!

The long Easter weekend just passed. For many, it’s a great time to escape overseas. My instagram was filled with selfies of airports, of friends making quick getaways. While Easter is just a holiday to many, it means much more to me. During Easter, we celebrate Jesus, who rose from the dead after He was crucified.

Okay, so some of you read online about how Good Friday isn’t the day when Jesus died… But, if I love someone, I would still celebrate him/her on whichever date. Wouldn’t you? Haha friends who missed an important date or anniversary, this one’s for you. It’s that simple to me, really!

Well, on one of the years back, I celebrated by getting water baptised on Easter! I first stepped into church when I was fourteen, and would I have loved to been water baptised then. However, I was worried my parents wouldn’t be too open to that idea. I was still young and they may have felt I was rushing into it. It’s the same feeling if I were to tell them about a similar lifelong decision or commitment… Like getting married, or a tattoo.

“Ma, I want to get married!”

“Don’t be stupid… You’re still young…”

And that’d be the end of it. Actually no, I might be nagged at for the next hour, or week. Haha. You know, bad decisions are like bad haircuts – you have to live with it, and it takes awhile to grow out of it. Please don’t quote me on this one. To ask my parents prematurely would have been equivalent to having a really really bad haircut.

I remember then, Charleston told me not to rush into it. He told me to wait it out,  to wait for the day I would be ready, and hopefully my family too. I’ve heard so many people complain about how they’re pressured into doing things. It’s really strange to me because I’ve always given a choice. We always have a choice. You can even choose otherwise (but that’s not license to complain about it all day). Often the right ones I’ve made are those choosing to honour God over my circumstances, despite what I feel. I always have a choice, but that doesn’t mean following God is the easiest one.

Just wait. Advice simple enough. I watched as hundreds of people get baptised every year. Every year the thought crossed my mind, when would it be my turn?

Some people quit too early… Before they discover what God has in store for them. Have you ever had that feeling where everything felt against you, and you just feel like running away? Or when everything you know is going against what you think and know? Instead of complaining about it… About how bad you’re treated or not understood… Or asking why did this person in church say this or that, do this or that? I may not have the answer to your questions — I take that back — maybe I do have the answer, but would you be ready for it? Accepting answers that don’t go with what we understand takes time and guts. That’s a story for another time (I promise I’ll write about it one day). My advise to you… I encourage you to hang on… you might just learn as I did, the difference between a decision you make for yourself, and one that God wants you to make. You just might discover where God is taking you in this journey of Life. 

Luke 22:42 “….let not my will, but Yours be done.”

Fourteen. Fiveteen. Sixteen. Seventeen. Eighteen. Nineteen. Twenty. Twenty-one.

Seven years. Then, on that seventh year, I felt I was finally ready. And what a happy day it was to have my family celebrate with me, as I celebrated with Jesus. You may not know my family… But getting us all together in a church (with the exception of Da Jie‘s wedding) is quite a feat. SEVEN YEARS! And I know and I know, that it would have been different if it had been on another year, earlier or later. But on that year it was perfect.

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In the baptism pool with Pastor Tan Seow How and Pastor Cecilia Chan.

 Oh happy day! Baptised by my pastors in Heart of God Church – Pastor Tan Seow How and Pastor Cecilia Chan.

What is that decision right now in your life that you need to make with God? Is it to stop complaining? To wait before getting together with that (candy)crush? To stop spending so much time on your computer games? To start loving people? To start serving? Or could it be to just hang on despite what you’re feeling? Hang on… Talk to your leader about it… Because it just might be the moment that changes your life. It would be different if it happens earlier or later. But in God’s time, it is perfect.

Jesus is the reason for this season. Happy Easter!